I-YI-YI....

holy crap its been almost 2 months, but i have a vaild excuse..i moved into a house with no internet or cable at the end of august. so much has happened in those two months. okay well i moved to south bend into an AWESOME house with 5 other girls! whew it's crazy and i love it. our house is sooo nice and huge. my roommates are phenomenal. they are so encouraging and fun! bout 4 weeks ago i basically put in a 2 weeks notice and the week after my notice i was sent home...so i didnt get the full 2 weeks but i have had 3 weeks of absolutely nothing to do. while it has its advantages and im soaking up every moment, having no money is soaking up my ability to do anything that i have to pay for ahah...yeah no pay check sucks. BUT BUT BUT i do have a job as of wednesday at express. its only temp. i have another job in the end zone im just waiting for them to find space. GOOD news is express will occupy my time while they get everything figured out. hmmmm what else...OH YEAH i suck at being good. i went to mexico 2 months ago and i have screwed up so many times already. its pretty discouraging really. having a sticking with doing the right thing once i pick up where i left off. i have let the past beat me down a lot. i am so weak when it comes to accpetance, oh and boys. its amazes me...me i mean i never cease to amaze myself. i have "really really really really sincerely liked" about 290420 boys since august and managed to not rely on God with my struggles. its pretty impressive how well i fink things up.
i will take this space up to write bout something good. colbie caillat and onerepublic make me very very vey very happy as well as saving jane's song grace, shane & shane's beg, switchfoot's on fire, and a couple more that have temporarily cancelled out the negative.
i really wish i had my notes with me i would just type about all the stuff i have written about in my journal and stuuuuuuuff. this isnt much of a blog. sorry if anyone reads my blog.
speaking of reading my blog hmmmm kristin my bff anf sister.in.law and the only person who reads my blog (hi kristin love you) (( i did that because she is prolly reading right now)) but anyway she is on a little road trip with some cool peeps fromm GCC. i miss her. moving out is great i can stay up however late i want, be immature but man i miss her. she is so wise and lving. you hear me kristin...youre wise and loyal and encouraging. you know what i found/learned?... encourage means to walk along side which is what you/ kristin do with me and my family and yours....you walk along side us rooting us on to do the right thing letting us know we are very well capable and can do the right thing. thanks
so with kristin being gone i am playing mom with lauren and i gotta say i dont think ill be a good mom but man that little girl is PRECIOUS. yeah she is my niece but seriously she's pretty darn special.
ohhh its friggin 5:53 a.m. if my brother cody was down here in their basement he would shart a brick ad be so mad at me for being on here hahaahh i love him yelling and all.but i think in honor of him ill call it a night a pass the frik out for a lil...

i will catch this blog up very very very soon.