- the second week of camp is ending in just hours.
- they did flips off the high dives tonight after celebrating with dance the weeks commitment to Christ...
- move07...qhwn i decided my heart was in it for HS AND MIDDLE SCHOOL...working within the community...connecting.
- mexico...getting my feet washed.
- baptized by Mark Beeson.
- my heart literally aches at times not being able to be apart of it again this summer
- not sure if i wanna go back to the way everything was last year though...?
been thinking a lot about those involved this year. that they stick with GOD and NEVER forget what they experienced and how they FELT GOD.
**dirty and left out by the almost
Showing posts with label nobody said it was easy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nobody said it was easy. Show all posts
Friday, July 11, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
i t s y o u r w o r l d
went to the last lifeline. dc spoke. things he said that caught my atention.
-God can emphasize with us.
-Sometimes we think other people live in this whole other world.
(i instantly thought wow i do that all the time with dc and the keims and beeson all the SMT i call that other world easy to be a christian.)
-God knows what I'm feeling, what i'm thinking, WHAT I'M DOING. He still just wants my heart.
-Challenge yourself with the patterns and habits by FACING THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE DICTATING MY LIFE!!! (naturally i freaked out when he said FACING THEM)
-how many times have i been ont he edge to God's promise, His plan, His will and I JUST WALK AWAY?!?!
-where are you going, based on where you have been?
-randomly get discouraged by this thought "GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD...but i'm not."
I N C O N S I S T A N T
why does my motivation go? why does my heart forget what God puts on it?
F A I L U R E
why do i make promises or these deals with God i can't keep?
-as i was thinking those thoughts, i started to focus back on the message and DC said "we all have leaky buckets". you know we all have holes where we drip a little.
-Duet. 7:7
-have you ever felt like God has clearly brought you out of a hole or a situation bigger than you?
-REMEMBER THAT TIME, REMEMBER GOD WAS WITH YOU.
-NO SITUATION, NO PERSON GOD cant deliver you from.
SOOO yeah we know God sent His son to die on the cross for OUR sins so that we can be forgiven, BUT just in going to Jesus does not mean He snaps His fingers and life is easy. I STILL HAVE MY HABITS!! What God WILL DO is provide a way to overcome evil!!
Duet. 7:17
-God wants to get in my dirt and HELP me get like Jesus!
So then God helped me realize this....
He doesnt just sit down. He knows we feel like we cant win, that sometimes we feel its bigger than us and even Him. BUT MAN if i want help, I HAVE TO LET HIM!!!
*God wants to clean my room, so i can't keep closing my door on Him*
God never has nor will He abondon me, so WHY DO I DO IT ALL THE TIME?!?!?
WHY DO I KNOW WHAT"S WRONG AND STILL DO IT!?!!?
God changes us LITTLE BY LITTLE. BABY STEPS SARAH! That's ALL i did when i first moved here. NOTHING, NOT ONE THING i did was EASY. i forgot how much of a struggle it was at first.
Maybe the reason why God changes us little by little is because its the only way we learn to rely on Him.
DC closed with this:
sometimes all we do is focus on the leasks in our buckets. what i need to do is see where i was before i moved here for GCCband measure my growth. (november 4, 2006- now)
i want my heart to break with what breaks God's.
-God can emphasize with us.
-Sometimes we think other people live in this whole other world.
(i instantly thought wow i do that all the time with dc and the keims and beeson all the SMT i call that other world easy to be a christian.)
-God knows what I'm feeling, what i'm thinking, WHAT I'M DOING. He still just wants my heart.
-Challenge yourself with the patterns and habits by FACING THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE DICTATING MY LIFE!!! (naturally i freaked out when he said FACING THEM)
-how many times have i been ont he edge to God's promise, His plan, His will and I JUST WALK AWAY?!?!
-where are you going, based on where you have been?
-randomly get discouraged by this thought "GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD...but i'm not."
I N C O N S I S T A N T
why does my motivation go? why does my heart forget what God puts on it?
F A I L U R E
why do i make promises or these deals with God i can't keep?
-as i was thinking those thoughts, i started to focus back on the message and DC said "we all have leaky buckets". you know we all have holes where we drip a little.
-Duet. 7:7
-have you ever felt like God has clearly brought you out of a hole or a situation bigger than you?
-REMEMBER THAT TIME, REMEMBER GOD WAS WITH YOU.
-NO SITUATION, NO PERSON GOD cant deliver you from.
SOOO yeah we know God sent His son to die on the cross for OUR sins so that we can be forgiven, BUT just in going to Jesus does not mean He snaps His fingers and life is easy. I STILL HAVE MY HABITS!! What God WILL DO is provide a way to overcome evil!!
Duet. 7:17
-God wants to get in my dirt and HELP me get like Jesus!
So then God helped me realize this....
He doesnt just sit down. He knows we feel like we cant win, that sometimes we feel its bigger than us and even Him. BUT MAN if i want help, I HAVE TO LET HIM!!!
*God wants to clean my room, so i can't keep closing my door on Him*
God never has nor will He abondon me, so WHY DO I DO IT ALL THE TIME?!?!?
WHY DO I KNOW WHAT"S WRONG AND STILL DO IT!?!!?
God changes us LITTLE BY LITTLE. BABY STEPS SARAH! That's ALL i did when i first moved here. NOTHING, NOT ONE THING i did was EASY. i forgot how much of a struggle it was at first.
Maybe the reason why God changes us little by little is because its the only way we learn to rely on Him.
DC closed with this:
sometimes all we do is focus on the leasks in our buckets. what i need to do is see where i was before i moved here for GCCband measure my growth. (november 4, 2006- now)
i want my heart to break with what breaks God's.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
...i set you apart. - God
so im sitting here bawling my eyes out listening to iPod and coldplay comes on with scientist. this song has always been a song from God to me even when i was out drinking and well just not respecting myself or God.
it hits me, for some reason God loves me. i will never know why but no matter who doesnt love me, whoever doesnt want me...He does EVERY DAY, EVERY SECOND. He set me apart. i cry out asking God why cant there be a guy out there that falls in love with everything about me like always hear not JUST in movies but in real life and witness!...WHY?? I DO...thats what God is crying back to me; that He does, more than anything i could possibly covet or love with a pure heart. GOD MADE ME. HE TOOK HIS TIME ON ME. and is taking his time with me now. i have a love. its God and Jesus. they sacrificed an easy life for a hard one. the least i can do is ALWAYS try, serve, and follow with a sincere humble heart.
it's true, when i was younger no one told me how bad life could suck; how heartless people can be; how scarred people are; how deeply affected people can be from bad habits passed on from centuries ago. all i saw and heard was disney stories. of course who wants to tell a small child about "people who do bad things"...it would create a heart full of fear and judgment; later holding he or she back from great experiences because of this subconscious alert that went off in their mind to "avoid, object(s) could hurt you".
this blog wasnt anything like i had planned it to be, but thats how life is...my nerves are more calm, my spirit still feels tangled in a spider web, but not forever trapped. i just need to need to let God in, make God my priority again. just go back to start.
it hits me, for some reason God loves me. i will never know why but no matter who doesnt love me, whoever doesnt want me...He does EVERY DAY, EVERY SECOND. He set me apart. i cry out asking God why cant there be a guy out there that falls in love with everything about me like always hear not JUST in movies but in real life and witness!...WHY?? I DO...thats what God is crying back to me; that He does, more than anything i could possibly covet or love with a pure heart. GOD MADE ME. HE TOOK HIS TIME ON ME. and is taking his time with me now. i have a love. its God and Jesus. they sacrificed an easy life for a hard one. the least i can do is ALWAYS try, serve, and follow with a sincere humble heart.
it's true, when i was younger no one told me how bad life could suck; how heartless people can be; how scarred people are; how deeply affected people can be from bad habits passed on from centuries ago. all i saw and heard was disney stories. of course who wants to tell a small child about "people who do bad things"...it would create a heart full of fear and judgment; later holding he or she back from great experiences because of this subconscious alert that went off in their mind to "avoid, object(s) could hurt you".
this blog wasnt anything like i had planned it to be, but thats how life is...my nerves are more calm, my spirit still feels tangled in a spider web, but not forever trapped. i just need to need to let God in, make God my priority again. just go back to start.
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